Just Thinking Aloud

What I want--no, need--is focus. Focus on the present alone with my heart set on heaven rather than on my future on Earth. You have control over both so help me to trust you. You know my controlling, perfectionist personality from the beginning of time so You also know how difficult it is for me to surrender. Give me the strength, God, to give You my dreams. Because my dreams are those of a young girl. Give me the dreams of Your daughter. Those will fill my heart and soul to extinguish the small dreams I have. Only then can I be given stewardship over earthly things. That seems a little backward but when Your dreams take over mine do not. And I don't want my small dreams to control me. I want You to guide me closer and closer to You.